The Kabbalists believe that the Creator is unchanging and is only capable of creating and bestowing. I'm interested in the unchanging part of the Creator. I have read or watched somewhere before about the unchanging nature of the Creator. Immovable, unshakeable, unchanging and eternal is some of the descriptive words of the Creator that interest me. Not sure why. But let us now try and investigate into the matter.
If I have a solid conviction, something I believe is truly good and beneficial, I would want to be like the Creator in terms of the unshakeable foundation of said belief or understanding or knowing. Problem is, I don't have a solid conviction of anything. Because I know nothing!! Doubt, lots and lots of doubt. Always doubting my own understanding, doubting others and doubting everything. So I think in order to be more like the Creator, I'm going to need to really consider my own convictions to the point where I can no longer doubt it anymore. But is that even possible for a human? We can't possibly know anything for sure. And that is a fact. And if you don't know anything for sure, how can you not doubt? The only people I know who can sort of do this are the religious people believing blindly in their faith etc. And I don't ever want to be like that. In fact, I see it as a total opposite of the unchanging notion of the Creator. Again, I'm not sure why but that's how I feel.
I really need to oobe to find some answers. And I will. It's only a matter of time. Haven't had much luck with the oobeing lately. Don't even remember my dreams but meditation sessions have been fruitful so at least it's something!
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