Synchronicity?

Just as I am starting to get deep into this journey to get out of the body, I got an email from blogger to remind me that this blog exist and funnily enough I have decided to name this blog Everything in Between which is exactly what I'm trying to find. Coincidence?

So I needed answers because I've been having trouble getting out of body even though I'm sure I've reached the twilight zone. I'm not going to dwell into that here because I've already expressed myself in the journal that I've been keeping. But what I will do is to journal in here from now onwards because I don't have to keep time and dates manually which will be great.

I think another clue to the answer of my question just came to me in the writings of Albert Taylor in his book Soul Traveller. Well, it seems there's no short cut for me and I do have to do this the hard way. Hard because it might take me forever but then again, that's what I wanted. I wanted answers to questions that I'm not even sure about anymore. I'm sure deep down somewhere I do know what my question is because somehow I can understand why I have been somehow led to this point in my journey and somehow this seem like the most logical and satisfactory answer yet.

I'm still suffering from heaviness in my chest and because I've forced myself to have something to eat, the emptiness in the stomach is no longer bothering me much. It still feels hollow inside somehow. Anyway, the expanding of the mind and the high I experienced in twilight zone did sort of gave me some relieve from this heaviness in the chest but that was only temporary and unfortunately I did not experience after effects upon waking up. Just this weird sensation starting from head to stomach.

Let me break it down for you. My whole head feels fuzzy. My mind seem to be unable to focus and there is a pressure all around my head which can be felt very heavily pressing against my ears. Back of my head, near the medula oblongata I think is tension all the way down the spine along the neck. My throat thank god is no longer vibrating in a distracting manner. If I focus enough, I can still feel the vibrations happening in there but it's very faint so I can hardly feel it when I'm not paying attention. Moving down to my neck beginning at the clavicles, again pressure and tensions all the way down to the chest area. Heart sometimes palpitates and below the chest near the stomach, an emptiness that seems insatiable.

So anyway, what worked for me very fleetingly was what Albert wrote in his book and this is what he wrote

Judge, and you shall be judged.
Hate, and you shall be hated.
Lie, and you shall be lied to.
Cheat, and you shall be cheated.
Curse, and you shall be cursed.
but Love, and so shall you be.

When I read that, immediately I felt a sense of relief from the current conditions of my chest. I should probably write it down somewhere so I can periodically read it to get some relief until it no longer has anymore magical healing effects for me. Ok, it no longer have the impact on me anymore even now. Dang it!

But anyway, the task at hand now is no longer to meditate for expansion but to go deep within myself and work out whatever it is that need to be worked out. Also in the interim, I need to be very aware of my emotions and feelings in order to keep them in check. This will be extremely hard to do especially with the kids because they have the knack to drive me to insanity sometimes, I mean all the time.

Of course I will not stop trying to get out of my body and will seize every opportunity I get and not lose hope that I will get to where I need to go eventually. I will not get lost because wherever I end up is exactly where I need to be. Seriously, I do feel a lot better after letting this out. That's probably why journaling is an important step to getting an oobe.