So I was reading up Kriya Yoga and I suddenly had the urge to go lie down. To meditate or even if I do fall asleep, I'll try and have an oobe. I didn't fell asleep so no oobe.
Anyhow, I wasn't sure what I was trying to do but I lied down and meditated and tried to induce oobe at the same time. I know, sounds like I'm all over the place but I just thought why not, right? So I'm clearing my mind and I tried to conjure up the vibration from the back of my throat. See, I told you it's not gone but I just don't feel it so much anymore. It's still there so I can just conjure it up when I focus enough. And I could make it stronger by the will of my focused mind. If I'm more focused, it obeys my commands better. I have to imagine it of course and in my mind's eye, this vibration is multicolored. Like a rainbow. Very nice. I managed to bring it up to the top of my head and down to my base chakra? I don't really know much about these chakra things but I just did according to what I know which is very little.
The point is that I could feel the energy of the vibration and I can bring it here and there if I focused enough. I can't really focus that much at the moment and by focusing I meant the power of my imagination of course. I can't imagine that well to bring it to my hand for instance and it was quite hard to bring it down the chest but I sort of did lamely. So I think I need to work more on this focused imagination to see where this rainbow vibration can take me. Very interesting stuff. I didn't really imagine it per se because I could really feel the vibration. Its just that when you try and perform telekinesis for example, you'd find it very hard to move things with your mind right? So its the same with this vibration. Trying to bring in wherever I want with my mind alone is not easy that's why I need to practice more with focusing the mind. Now my whole head is slightly buzzing with the fuzzy feeling. Kinda like how you feel when you take your first drag of cigarette after a long time and you feel that high. Much like weed buzz but a lot milder but it stays longer than that fleeting cigarette buzz. Very interesting.
Also I've come to see that heavy chest feeling as a more lighter chest instead. Because at the end of the day it's how you perceive things. I'd rather see it as my airways opening up a lot more than a burden on my chest. So it feels weird for me now because I can breathe so much more but I'm sure in due course like the throat vibration, I would get used to it.
Thursday, 30 August 2018
Wednesday, 29 August 2018
Synchronicity?
Just as I am starting to get deep into this journey to get out of the body, I got an email from blogger to remind me that this blog exist and funnily enough I have decided to name this blog Everything in Between which is exactly what I'm trying to find. Coincidence?
So I needed answers because I've been having trouble getting out of body even though I'm sure I've reached the twilight zone. I'm not going to dwell into that here because I've already expressed myself in the journal that I've been keeping. But what I will do is to journal in here from now onwards because I don't have to keep time and dates manually which will be great.
I think another clue to the answer of my question just came to me in the writings of Albert Taylor in his book Soul Traveller. Well, it seems there's no short cut for me and I do have to do this the hard way. Hard because it might take me forever but then again, that's what I wanted. I wanted answers to questions that I'm not even sure about anymore. I'm sure deep down somewhere I do know what my question is because somehow I can understand why I have been somehow led to this point in my journey and somehow this seem like the most logical and satisfactory answer yet.
I'm still suffering from heaviness in my chest and because I've forced myself to have something to eat, the emptiness in the stomach is no longer bothering me much. It still feels hollow inside somehow. Anyway, the expanding of the mind and the high I experienced in twilight zone did sort of gave me some relieve from this heaviness in the chest but that was only temporary and unfortunately I did not experience after effects upon waking up. Just this weird sensation starting from head to stomach.
Let me break it down for you. My whole head feels fuzzy. My mind seem to be unable to focus and there is a pressure all around my head which can be felt very heavily pressing against my ears. Back of my head, near the medula oblongata I think is tension all the way down the spine along the neck. My throat thank god is no longer vibrating in a distracting manner. If I focus enough, I can still feel the vibrations happening in there but it's very faint so I can hardly feel it when I'm not paying attention. Moving down to my neck beginning at the clavicles, again pressure and tensions all the way down to the chest area. Heart sometimes palpitates and below the chest near the stomach, an emptiness that seems insatiable.
So anyway, what worked for me very fleetingly was what Albert wrote in his book and this is what he wrote
Judge, and you shall be judged.
Hate, and you shall be hated.
Lie, and you shall be lied to.
Cheat, and you shall be cheated.
Curse, and you shall be cursed.
but Love, and so shall you be.
When I read that, immediately I felt a sense of relief from the current conditions of my chest. I should probably write it down somewhere so I can periodically read it to get some relief until it no longer has anymore magical healing effects for me. Ok, it no longer have the impact on me anymore even now. Dang it!
But anyway, the task at hand now is no longer to meditate for expansion but to go deep within myself and work out whatever it is that need to be worked out. Also in the interim, I need to be very aware of my emotions and feelings in order to keep them in check. This will be extremely hard to do especially with the kids because they have the knack to drive me to insanity sometimes, I mean all the time.
Of course I will not stop trying to get out of my body and will seize every opportunity I get and not lose hope that I will get to where I need to go eventually. I will not get lost because wherever I end up is exactly where I need to be. Seriously, I do feel a lot better after letting this out. That's probably why journaling is an important step to getting an oobe.
So I needed answers because I've been having trouble getting out of body even though I'm sure I've reached the twilight zone. I'm not going to dwell into that here because I've already expressed myself in the journal that I've been keeping. But what I will do is to journal in here from now onwards because I don't have to keep time and dates manually which will be great.
I think another clue to the answer of my question just came to me in the writings of Albert Taylor in his book Soul Traveller. Well, it seems there's no short cut for me and I do have to do this the hard way. Hard because it might take me forever but then again, that's what I wanted. I wanted answers to questions that I'm not even sure about anymore. I'm sure deep down somewhere I do know what my question is because somehow I can understand why I have been somehow led to this point in my journey and somehow this seem like the most logical and satisfactory answer yet.
I'm still suffering from heaviness in my chest and because I've forced myself to have something to eat, the emptiness in the stomach is no longer bothering me much. It still feels hollow inside somehow. Anyway, the expanding of the mind and the high I experienced in twilight zone did sort of gave me some relieve from this heaviness in the chest but that was only temporary and unfortunately I did not experience after effects upon waking up. Just this weird sensation starting from head to stomach.
Let me break it down for you. My whole head feels fuzzy. My mind seem to be unable to focus and there is a pressure all around my head which can be felt very heavily pressing against my ears. Back of my head, near the medula oblongata I think is tension all the way down the spine along the neck. My throat thank god is no longer vibrating in a distracting manner. If I focus enough, I can still feel the vibrations happening in there but it's very faint so I can hardly feel it when I'm not paying attention. Moving down to my neck beginning at the clavicles, again pressure and tensions all the way down to the chest area. Heart sometimes palpitates and below the chest near the stomach, an emptiness that seems insatiable.
So anyway, what worked for me very fleetingly was what Albert wrote in his book and this is what he wrote
Judge, and you shall be judged.
Hate, and you shall be hated.
Lie, and you shall be lied to.
Cheat, and you shall be cheated.
Curse, and you shall be cursed.
but Love, and so shall you be.
When I read that, immediately I felt a sense of relief from the current conditions of my chest. I should probably write it down somewhere so I can periodically read it to get some relief until it no longer has anymore magical healing effects for me. Ok, it no longer have the impact on me anymore even now. Dang it!
But anyway, the task at hand now is no longer to meditate for expansion but to go deep within myself and work out whatever it is that need to be worked out. Also in the interim, I need to be very aware of my emotions and feelings in order to keep them in check. This will be extremely hard to do especially with the kids because they have the knack to drive me to insanity sometimes, I mean all the time.
Of course I will not stop trying to get out of my body and will seize every opportunity I get and not lose hope that I will get to where I need to go eventually. I will not get lost because wherever I end up is exactly where I need to be. Seriously, I do feel a lot better after letting this out. That's probably why journaling is an important step to getting an oobe.
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